Why is getting a thigh gap so hard?
me: argh stop eating, you will gain 500 grams and you will never have a thigh gap, go on huge diet/workout thing for 2 years. Legs only become toned and sill look fat
other human beings: Oh i eat 5kgs worth of hamburgers everyday, my legs are just so beautiful and thigh gap like.
me: I don’t know who you are but i will find you and will kill you.
Ok, so I was watching Peppa Pig and well……this is one of tHE BEST MOMENTS EVER. I CAN’T STOP LAUGHING
SHE JUSST HANGS UP ON HER
Today, for the first time in a year i did it. I could feel it coming towards me and slowly creep it’s way back into my head. It would start with me feeling sad and sorry for myself, then it would turn into small whispers in the back of my head telling me that i am ugly and shouldn’t be around any longer. Then it would turn into shouts, yelling at me telling me i am ugly, i am not worthy, i am disgusting, that i don’t deserve to live. I would try and shout back but they don’t shut up, because deep down inside i know it’s true. So i did it, so the shouting would go away for a little while.. it did but of course they’re back again angrier than ever. They tell me that i am unworthy to myself let alone my family and friends for being so weak and giving in and breaking a promise to myself that i kept so long. I look in the mirror and i tell myself i can do this, i tell myself that your being stupid and dramatic. I hear the people around me tell me that i am being stupid and dramatic when you try to reach for a helping hand or when i ask for someone to listen. So you shut down and stop talking to people, i soon hear the voices tell me that i am fat and should stop eating, of course i am now weak and vulnrable with all those cuts on my arm and having no friends or family who understand. So i stop eating to get the voices to shut up, but they keep going. There is nothing else i can do so i turn to the medication cabinet in the bathroom and sneak some sleeping tablets into my room at night. I wait for everyone to go too sleep as i chuck back 6 sleeping pills, i felt myself fade away i felt myself become weak and the droziness kick in, soon i shut my eyes and let the last breath slip out of me, and i finally found peace everything became peacefully quiet, i found happiness at last…
Today i got called ugly, i cried